left memories

Guide me.

2012-02-06T21:14:00.001+08:00

what will you do if you stuck with only one choice and there's no turning back ?

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2012-01-30T20:31:00.003+08:00

wonder if there's still anyone who reads my blog ha ha ha. have been blogging for 3-4 years hmmm ..actually i'm here just wondering if there's still anyone who remember my birthday hehe ;p tomorrow is 1st of feb which means another .... till my birthday .ohkay cut the crap ..

i would love u if u get me anytg that gotta do with my idols ,esp taufik *hint hahah ok bye ;)

Wish you the best.

2012-01-28T19:16:00.004+08:00

It really hit me hard that you're leaving... To know that i'm never gonna meet you again. Yes ,my close colleague is leaving spore soon.and to know i can't meet him during his last day here just suck :(( his the only guy at work that i'm close with.each time we met ,he never fail to give me weird facial expression. He also the reason why i'm always looking forward to work.and now that i stop working ...i wonder how he's doing. Early today when i receive the news ...my heart totally sank . U even said "big boys don't cry" but i bet you must be rlly sad. I wonder how long you gonna be at there . . . Don't leave ... I don't wanna say gdbye so i'll say ..till we meet again my friend

Mixed feeling

2012-01-25T22:13:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i don't know what i want in life.. I don't know what i really want.. Issit normal to feel that way? I don't think i'm good enough for anyone. I can't even make someone happy but instead vice versa.Surrounded by lovely people but i always feel lonely,each time.😔 Not bragging here but this is the only place i could let out everything about how i feel.... They say happiness last awhile ,cherish it while it last ... Still pondering still wondering

Gone for awhile

2012-01-21T00:47:00.002+08:00

In a few hours time,i'm leaving.damn heart feel heavy.1stly cos i couldn't have e chance to tweet to tb everyday like how i used to :(( i don't knw lah call me obsessed or wht .but its like daily routine you see.2ndly i just don't feel like going.pls wait for my arrival :/

LONG POST AHEAD! :DDD

2012-01-17T20:29:00.006+08:00

hmmmm i'm here again to share with u guys good news.hmm not actually gd news but a recent event that i actually attend to.so on last fri i attend the sinaran hati which was a charity event held @ caldecott mediacorp. the reason i attend was of cos to be there for taufik batisah.to support him ;)

so me and hud took e train n drop @ caldecott station. aft tht we were lost cos there were few taxis around.and to reach mediacorp will took us around 15 min to reach. and we couldn't make it if we walk so ........ we took the taxi.we bump to this makcik which coincidentally wanted a taxi too. made friends with her hahah friendly makcik :)) so we had a chat and so then where came a time i ask her " makcik pergi sorang ke?" and she said "tak ,tunggu mak taufik "

then i was like >>>>omg omg all the way ahahhah! can't believe the makcik we talk to is taufik's mom best friend aisey';) when we reached taufik's mom said "hmm ingatkan bawak sape tadi"to her best friend hahaha ya allah

did'nt get the best view though .....sitted with lot lot of makcik ahhh :'( cos e reason why i hate so much is becos all the makcik2 miang/gatal no offence.tell u why later. so taufik made e first appearance ! as always he killied it with his sexy voice which can melt the girls heart hahah :p my shouting cannot beat makcik2 cos they all i meant all....hmmm only god knows. hmm mintak ampun .sezairi on that night was totally stunning man . he totally rocks singing malay song.damn love it so much :D love e duet he and ana .cos they both totally look cute together :) so when taufik made e second appearance ... e whole mediacorp studio is filled with fans screaming !!!!!!!!! he's the best lah no matter what .he sang usah lepaskan .love the way he put emotion to the song which made me move to tears :') he totally made my night ! when e whole thing end as usual makcik2 still screaming HA HA . i pity the husband ahhh :/ cos they were all giving flying kiss to taufik then e husband poker face haish hahah kesian! actually i oso jealous . . . haaha

aft everything ended,when to tv gate to meet my fav of cos .haish only god know how delighted/joyful i am to meet taufik again. ^^ words couldn't describe how happy i was on that day . so when he came ... fuuuu everyone crowded around him.he was so happy to meet all of us^^.

e manager was too strict :( only allowed us to take grp photo and thts it.no single shot with taufik.so when one of e fan came to taufik to ask a photo ,taufik said "its not fair right if i take photo with you while e rest couldn't ." we all were yess ,can we take photo with you! finally he said"how about u all made a line n i take photo with each of u" he sucha SWEETHEART PLS!! he actually couldn't take photo like said by the manager but he take e time to actually do so :')

so tadaa!!! mind my face it was nearly to 12am ...sleepy face but too happy that i could take a picha with my idol.when its my turn to take picha with him ,damn my heart flutter like xzvnaz234/hahaha. shook hands with him and he said : "love polka-dots"hahaha he was random but he was referrin to my blouse actually:p hahah .omg there's many things to write here but then i think this is alrdy long post man .HAHAHHA pardon me pls.

Bullshit

2012-01-09T00:08:00.003+08:00

Sorry for leaving this site dead yet again.not busy but ....just don't feel like blogging.yet there's many to share 😏. Yknow sometimes i don't even know who to share or perhapss i shall say someone to talk too.yea i'm pathetic ...lonely although i have friends surrounded me.i don't even know who to trust .u can say i lost trust in every single one i guess😔. The things is....i get emotional easily.i can get hurt easily when someone just shoot smtg right into my face.esp when its smtg tht hurtful.and what i did,is to just keep quiet n keep it inside. Sucks to be in this position.esp when the hurtful words came frm ur friends😢.i guess now i know who matter n who don't.don't even blame me.blame yourself .i guess what i wrote here stays here .

1st day sch

2012-01-03T17:07:00.004+08:00

u know what sadden me....when yr sub tcher doesn't appreciate your presence for the fact that u're promoted to sec 5 :( i know maybe i didn't achieve the targets u set for me but at least a congratulation wish will do :(( this is the reason why I'm coming back to sec 5.

i wanna prove to others esp to my teachers that i can achieve goods result. maybe in sec 4 my attitude doesn't show that i really want to go sec 5 ,but deep inside i badly want to.i wanna go poly.....

but I'm still happy for the fact that there's still other teachers that welcome me back :') thank u ............... "selamat kembali/balik dayang2" awww my ckg must be really sweet man :')

for now..i wanna achieve my goals and what I've been wanting for...to follow my dreams.i hope its not to late .keep my prayers in you luv ya:))

•for everyone

2011-12-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

Wondering if you're the same?wondering how are you? Sucks that we're not on talkin terms anymore.I always thought I'm the cause of everything. Pls forgive me.but I know an apology is just an apology. Please stick with me through the hardest time.I don't want anyone to walk out of my life anymore. Once is enough . But i'm still holding on.still... Because you meant so much to me . Pls stay ,that's all I'm asking . No goodbye ,

N's result

2011-12-19T18:23:00.003+08:00

do today was the N's result 2011. it was nerve-wracking. heart pumping real fast ,tears starting to roll down,hands shivering.anything u could think of.results have been haunting me since the day getting nearer and nearer.

the moment i gotta know,cried n cried.couldn't care the surroundings. I'M PROMOTED . i couldn't express how proud or how relieve i was to get the results.may not be what i expect but to know i was promoted, it was e best feelin i could have ask for :) e first person on my mind was my mom .

so made the call ,and she burst to tears .she thank me ,she said she pray for me to see me in sec 5 and yes i did.so she ask me to stop crying but ended up we both cried .hahaha love my mom.

aft that receive congratulations text frm fam members n friends.really appreciate it guys ;")
can't wait to start a new beginning next year :))

X

2011-12-15T01:53:00.001+08:00

Been asking myself this qns for too long .where did I went wrong? U went missing again .I suppose this is how it's suppose to be :( alright then

Happy BDAY handsome :)

2011-12-10T01:18:00.002+08:00

Happy 30th to my all time fav idol,Taufik batisah .7 years growing up listening to his music.talented young man.how I wish he would read this hahaha .anyway flooded my twitter wishing him . Finally big 30 , n yes sooner or later he soon gonna get married n settle down . Can't imagine if those days gonna come . Heart pain ~ but no matter what , will still support his music cos he's not only e man but hay he's e best among the rest luv ya Taupik;)

bye2

2011-12-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

people come and go.so i guess ,you're next ?:(

Just sayin

2011-12-05T16:14:00.002+08:00

"I wish this memories would stay for long .i miss how our friendship used to be"

"'."'

2011-12-01T17:37:00.002+08:00

all i want is someone who will stick with me when the going gets tough. i don't want someone to be there only when i needed help. i tend to push people away .what they do in return? they walked away .i hate seeing ppl leave. i may be harsh with words.but pls sometimes i don't meant it.another thing ,i don't want someone to be there and sometimes they just disappear :(

Stop expecting

2011-12-01T11:05:00.002+08:00

You know what sad ? I made those note beforehand.I carefully choose suitable words as to fit to the sentence.yea I'm slow thts the reason it took me 1week to compose a simple paragragh yea I'm dumb liddt.but why sad ?? You don't ,I repeat you dont see it.damn my heart sank :(( I don't know if you see it but act as if you don't .dammit .first thing in tha mornin I check ,but it all bring to disappointment.why did I bother in the first place .why should I ? Bcos I care ,I think I care too much.and I think it's time not for me to chase .I done chasing.I don't wanna be hurt anymore.I don't even wanna expect anytg frm you.sad to say I thought you notice me ....but just for awhile.I hate this feelin:(((( go away

to you.

2011-11-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

I hate goodbyes. I hate seeing people leave

...

2011-11-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

I think this feelin I had for you is dead and gone. I no longer felt the same like the first time I like you. I guess you gone for too long.and now when you came back to my life again ....I don't know what to feel ? I miss you yes but I just .....don't have feelin for you anymore.like I say if you can't keep the conversation going,I'm gonna leave.I guess you don't .and now probably the reason I'm tryin to keep a distance from you . But the thought of sympathy ...damn I pity you but I can't do anytg ahhh shit is over what's here stay here xoxo

Favourite ;)

2011-11-23T23:40:00.003+08:00

To have your fav idol to notice you ,I think that's blessing. I was waiting this days to come and finally it came.if u guys have been reading my old posts,u all should know how imma big fan of Taufik batisah.I've been supporting him eversince 2004 the year he won spore idol 1.I can brag all day about Taufik I don't mind .and for him to notice me ,I'm touched.I ain't kidding.cos to have thousand fans ,liking you it so hard to get notice seriously! I remember before all of this I was wishing and hoping that maybe he will soon notice me.and yes,that day have come. And getting a gdnite n sweetdreams from him,I'm more thn delighted!can't express this feelin .This year have been a grateful year for me. And I'm grateful for that :) bless .I shall sleep now with a big smile on my face .If u happen to meet Taufik batisah,tell him how much I adore n love him hehe ;)

Dear diary.....

2011-11-23T01:11:00.003+08:00

I wanna be with someone who can accept me for who I am.who will accept my flaw,my ego and when I'm at worst.I want to find someone who worthy .be with someone who I can act silly with anytime without being awkward. Love guys who I can share everything too. I want to find a guy who's not only my man but also someone whom I can call my bestfriend too. I would like him to give me surprises each time we met .most importantly someone's whose not shy .I love outgoing guys. A guy whom respectful to the elderly ,well-mannered .the thing is ,he don't have to be a perfect guy.no ones perfect .I shall continue this soon xoxo

all said.

2011-11-21T17:48:00.003+08:00

i pretty much hate it when someone said i've change .and i meant in terms
the way i react or my behaviour.1stly look , don't tell me you guys dont change
when you all growing up .idk how to put in words but i hope ya all geddit.im
just sayin.not mad but just puring out my feelings.

Mr.shy boy

2011-11-19T00:49:00.003+08:00

Is this what we call falling in love ? Missing someone and wishing you could see their faces everyday ? Damn ,I miss you . I don't even know if I've fallen for you.cos I always look up to each day hoping I could meet and talk to you. I love the moment when you look at me and make that cute expression . I love it when you stare and chuckle heh I could blush all day when I remember all of this back . But I'm just afraid that this feelin will come and go .just like how it did to (insertname)...... Everytime when I looked back at our conversation i'll be like "issit really you?" can't believe we're friends .stranger ---->friends and I love the fact that you're not shy cos I love it when guys make the first move .for eg. Talking/joking around with me.Cos for sure I'll be comfortable around u w/o doubt heh . With that ,I'll end here till thn .

3 years had past.

2011-11-10T00:40:00.002+08:00

Why do I always think that u deserve another chance when u actually dont:( it's been months since we last talked .I miss u bestfriend .can't denied this feelin I had for u . I just miss u .it's been such a long time since I last saw u.I always question,how are u?are u fine ? :( do u still regard me as yr bestfriend? It's ok if u don't regard me as bestfriend,but at least a friend will do right? I miss our long conversation we had.we would talked till e morning .n it will always be me who end the conversation n u tryin to keep e conversation goin.I miss how u create nicknames for me,n only e two of us who know it:( I miss how u bully me each time I talked abt my idols .n I think u're e only guy who know how much I love Taufik batisah n Chris brown. I used to shared with u how much I love them n u will always say u love them to .of cos I knw u jokin abt it.n u like to joke that u will take them away frm me haha :( I think u're e only one that i feel comfortable sharing everything n anything. U used to send me a gdnight msg w/o fail .I still keep those msg-es. Although alrdy pass midnight ,u will still send e msg.n of cs aft readin it,I will sleep with a big smile on my face. It just sucks having flashback abt all this when everything change .u changed :/ Sometimes idk what went wrong .issit me? Or maybe there's a reason behind everything .I can't believe I'm writing all this. Swear it takes a lot courage for me to post this .idk for how long I can keep this feelin.I just want my bestfriend back ,that all I'm asking .N everytime when I'm online ,I always wish u were online just so I could talk to u.I dont mind if it only takes a min ..Just wanna ask how are u doin n dts it. I could have texted u but things ain't like last time....texting u will be awkward ..seriously cos we're nt that close anymore .There's many thing I wish I could tell u but wasn't given a chance . I still regard u as my friend n that won't change for a fact.my mind may say that I hate u .....but my heart still care.no matter how rough or ugly it may seem ,I won't have grudges over u .cos I still care abt u.for nw dts it ...I'll be back soon.wdv I wrote here stays here .don't wish to brag anymore

nothin more i could ask for,love u taufik:)

2011-10-30T23:11:00.008+08:00

SNEAK PEAK ;)

People say falling in love is the best feeling you cld eva ask for.but for me ,its otherwise. for me,meeting someone whom you been dying to meet.and yes,finally i got to meet him again .it was an improtu plan wdv u call it.bt since i was free today, make myself free and went to expo.

at first ,the feelin was normal ...... until he appear. and yes my heart was beating so fast.and it was driving me crazy ;p hahah like real only . and the best part is... we were sitting at front row.the view was magnificent .but makcik2 beside me ..... so mental n i meant like really .but its okay cos im fine with it as taufik saw me too xD hahha

so the opening song was addicted ,as usual he sway the song and make me fall in love hah .aft tht was talking session with shah .hahah it was damn funny omg still remember vividly right now.e 2nd song was nafasku .and what taufik said early on was indeed really sweet :) he say once he found his life partner/true love he will dedicate that song to her.he will sing to her .and i was like awwwwwww all the way. dt girl must be damn lucky :( cn the girl(gadis itu) be me ? hahah wht a joke.

final song was usah lepaskan ,a great song to end the day .did i tell you tht i swit2/whistle at taufik and he eventually turnt and look at me?hahaha ,yes he did.and he gave me tht warm smile haaaaish ,my heart melted right away. you have no idea hw many photos i took today,bt i'm gonna upload a few if nt there you go.....flooded with tb photos.

part was really really lucky ,and i meant really!emphasize on that he he he ,get the opportunity to meet-up with taufik behind backstage . so i was the first to meet him ....it was really awkward damn awkward lah .

so reach out my hands to him , he ask"hi ,nice to meet u.whats yr name" i replied of cos"hana" by thn my hand alrdy shivering hahahah.he was cute n replied "im taufik"of cos i knw u lahhh so comel pls :) we talk thn took photos. when going off i say to him "cn i hug u?" i knw what was i thinking when i said tht but i jst did .lol. bt i didnt expect him to hug back lah . he say yes yes,sure"woahhhhhhh, aft that ,i hug him tightly . aft so many years i been waiting for this days,jst to get a hug frm my fav idol,today's the day:D finally i went off before that , i bid goodbye n he bid goodbye too hehehe:) so that was wht happen today ,so many things happen ,but i just couldn't type here ,so happy more thn happy actually .hehehe forever supporting him ,my idola ^^

WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MY FAV IDOL,TAUFIK BATISAH<3

:'(

2011-10-25T23:02:00.002+08:00

So....finally i get the time to update.I just wanna say that I miss you.but my ego is big enough that I don't have the courage to tell you :( it's sucks having to pretend yes it does. I wonder if you feel the same way too.I wonder if you miss me.I wonder if you still have feelings for me or maybe I'm the only who still keep this feelings.shucks.Just wanna tell u I miss u nau:(

told you.

2011-10-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

i miss this lil girl ,yes i do .
just some photos to upload to make my blog alive again :)

HALLOWEEN =HELL-O-WIND

2011-10-20T21:58:00.008+08:00

Halloween 2011

HAHAHA! finally we get to took pictures with e globe!

hais,forever scary girls!

this is wht we called ,"pontianak"

OK,this guy also creepy.the facial expression last warning eh!

hersey choc which cost 5 bucks!

cn win award for"scream the loudest at halloween"

HAHAHHA! this monster wvd it is .was scaring me awy ,but i went up to it and say"cn i take a pic?" hahah nt scary lh u!

zombie ,nt pretty scary actually :p

FAV PIC OF THE NIGHT.can't believe it was him lah . i went up so close to him n i was like ,ëh,ni kan jalani kan?" n yea ,i burst out laughing with my girls.hais ,manager pun kene makeup!

This guy is damn creepy .yeap,he went super close to huda n she scream as if she someone just rape her .hahah!!

THIS!ghost creep me .pls lh ,e facial all can be a real ghost !!

went to the preview of halloween at USS ,for free pls. so yea,before going there we went around the place like tourist .hah!padahal ..... hahah! so we went to candy empire take a few shot n off we go.

tell u wht wht ,jst before entering USS .the sound effect really scares us.yea , 1st thing we went in saw e clown!!! hw much i hate e clown .bcos of the makeup ,creepy smile ,wdv u cn describe the look.yea,took pics bt cannot with flash=sian.and futher more my batt went low=2x sian.really suay bt oh well we had fun esp at the haunted house.

i think the most spooky thing at uss would be the 2 haunted house. n we were screaming/shouting for help .n yea,i even hugged a malay guy cos the ghost showed up at my face.bloody zombie/ghost.hahah! the part i like would be at the mummy eygpt wdv u call it .like a mini club where everyone dance hahah! even e zombie+ghost danced too! it was tremendously fun :))

ended ard 12am ,n we soon headed home. although it was only for 1-2 hour , i still had fun with e rest.disturbing the zombie,smiling,pulling prank .cs i knw they are human of cs im nt scared .it they were a real ghost.....

oh yea ,jackson were pretty .... hmm good-looking .heh yes + joseph .my new friend i make at south .best ppl to hang out with :)

Wil you?

2011-10-16T23:25:00.005+08:00

i jst gotta post abt this one.idc anymore if my friends say i'm emo or wht so eva. which is i always write sad n emo post bla bla. the thing is ,they don't know me tht well. they don't go to the extend to ask me ,wht happen? why i'm feelin this way. sometimes i come to a point where i ask myself,who are my true friends. i knw this is stupid ,but sometimes i feel they are all pretending. no , i meant really:(

1stly pretending to understand me.i hate this the most .its like they don't understand me and tryin to understand its like....zzz .whts e point? oh yea ,another thing is. all jokes aren't funny . i meant really ! i'm nt the time of person who u cn say smtg n the nxt min u say ,'i'm just jokin" oh ,common . u have no idea if tht joke have jst hurt my feelin .u see , sometimes this ppl shld be careful of the words they use to others.

they say u cn have thousand of friends ,but only 1 who will be there for you through the hardest/darkest time. n yea,i'm still finding tht 1 person who will .i'm nt tryin to say i don't have now but .... oh well hard to say .

i ain't complaining .. but i'm just tryin to let out wdv i wanna say fr a long time . doesnt meant i quiet =no feelings .i think this is e only place where i cn write wdv i wnt .yea,i feel better writing all this rather thn tellin someone else.

the truth is ,i rather be alone.bt i knw i cn never survive being alone.ya get wht i meant.this post is getting too way draggy . wdv it is ,wht here stay here.i don't wish to bring up the matter again .with tht ,i hope no one will .. k ,wdv bye.

it last for awhile

2011-10-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

i just gotta post about this .cs it keeps bothering me 2 more days and there you go.... :(

so yea ,this fri is our graduating day.i jst can't believe .4 years had just past and soon we all gotta go our own way.so where should i start 1st ?

okay ,sec1 .wdl sec wasn't my sch choice.i pick e sch jst bcos my bro was in tht sch.yea mom idea. bt tell you,it wasn't a wrong choice.never i regret choosing this sch. so sec 1 make with awesome friend whom i still keep in touch up till today. and there you go sec 2.sec 2 was the most memorable year i had.yea , i still want 2009 bck.

many things happen jst couldn't describe .had the best form teachers and awesome friends.

sec 3+4 ,same classmates n teachers.can't denied had so many moments with them .n yea the fact tht its gonna be in two days time we're graduating is shitty.

i wish sec sch day aren't over yet. i bet i'm gonna cry buckets this fri.pls don't tell me:(

SO 4F IM GONNA MISS YOU GUYS ALOT YESSS :(( hais ,i shld get back later. cs i continue jeng jeng i'll cry toodles.

you make me to a heartless person.

2011-10-10T18:21:00.004+08:00

so i guess this blog is forever dead.hah! but i'm back.as N's finally over.smtg to smile about :)
bt still .... results .yea ,to think back i rlly hope my hard work paid off phewww

beside tht ,dnt ppr which is the last ppr was a killer. yes,indeed. nt suprise if i get low marks bt pls nt too low.actually there's a lot of things i wanna post here bt the thing is i can't think of anytg now:( brain clog?!?

oh yea !another thing.err ,lst month shld be ,i enter a cntest . to win specialized cards frm taufik batisah. n yeaaaaaaa , i did win !!! the feelin was ... speechless. hahahaha haish tb :)) i knw no motive wrting anymr ...so i shld go off nw. be back ltr !

Bestf=enemy ?

2011-10-02T02:41:00.004+08:00

I shouldn't have care,but i did. I hate this feelin.I don't geddit.at one point of time u act diff,n e nxt moment u change to someone i knew:( stop giving me e cold shoulder.i may nt say it to yr face , bt pls i've feelin too.idk fr u ,bt u don't seem to care.i've been trying to take care of yr feelin bt u don't see it comin.idk r we friends ?bestfriend? Or jst strangers yet again:( i've been keepin this for a long time.i thought u've change but infact u're not. Stop coming to me n giving me false hope. Im tryin to keep a distance but it doesn't help . Ahhhh , forget it .off i go :/

Get over it !

2011-09-16T01:19:00.003+08:00

I'm trying my best to hate you in order to get rid of these feeling.bt i can't cos it keeps haunting me again n again.I keep tellin myself , i don't wanna fall in love with you again . Cs im scared it will end up like hw it used to be . I get heartbroken instead . Im trying to keep a distance bt you keep coming back . I don't blame you . Bt why now ? Why you come into my life again after i move on frm you ? Whr were u when i needed u e most ? U weren't there , sad to say . Im confused tell me wht to do :(((

dondo. jib .

2011-09-15T16:57:00.001+08:00

at times ,i find myself falling for you . but i don't wanna be deceive by this feeling .

so keep this way ,let's just hide .

life been good:)

2011-09-12T00:53:00.005+08:00

thank you to huda who accompany me on tht day :))

i wear so 'selekeh' .but oh well who cares?

while waiting for both of them

he's cute ,hady mirza:)

The weekend have been great .i wish i could rewind it back .firstly , sat . was relieved+surprised+shocked+nofeelings tht i got a reply from taufik batisah. yes ,cs i wasn't expecting a reply frm him .so when i got to know ,you have no idea hw overwhelming the feeling was.

on sun ,meet-n-greet with taufik batisah n hady mirza at nex.you have no idea hw long we waited. but it was worthwhile since in tha end we get to meet them . 1stly when i saw taufik,i was screaming like hell.so didn't manage to take photos of him.but yet ,i manage to shake his hands . went crazy afterwards ,seriously hahaha. aft the whole thing end , i was " i must badly take picture with them .its a must must" n yes i did.

went it comes to hady ,it was easy since there's not much of ppl .n he was way way taller thn me:( feel so short hais. so when it taufik turn ,e manager say last shot .so i make a move by tapping his hands .yes tap his hands till he saw me .hahha epic sia ,smr his hands hairy.chey tk but still handsome wht! so at last , got to take picture with him. n im tellin you his body anytime cn hug .so huggable :(((

here it goes ,my idol since 2004 .taufik batisah.

my face like scared since everyone was rushing wanna take pictures hais:(

we went to toilet afterwards. coincidentally , tht was the exit where hady n taufik went. n im tellin you it was epic cs i was dancing , n there you go taufik passing by !! but he did smile .hahaha ,tht seriously made my day :))

n when i went bck home to check twitter. there u go ,hady replied my tweet .tell me hw cn i not be happy ?!indeed dreams do come true . my dreams came true at last .which is to meet both of them n to get a replied at twitter.

hw cn i nt love my weekend? with tht , bye(:

Pujaan hati

2011-09-11T01:15:00.002+08:00

I know this may sound stupid but FINALLY TAUFIK BATISAH REPLY MY TWEET . The day i been waiting for. Cs u knw its so hard to get notice when you're one of tb thousands fans. So when he did take e effort to reply , i was touch . Tb finally u notice me . I remember crying at huda cs tb did't reply my tweet.yes pathetic as it seems . And few more hours im gonna meet him fr meet n greet . Life have been a blessings. Ty allah :) im happy delighted with things are now . Lastly , just wanna say love my idol who i've been supporting eversince 2004 . This love nvr dies heh abg taupik love u:p

Dondo

2011-09-09T01:20:00.003+08:00

I wanna meet you again . I wanna talk to you . It sucks having to pretend tht i don't like you. When the actual fact is,i like you . I still remember when the time you gave me a warm smile. And you chuckle . Meet u soon

falling in love all over again

2011-09-06T21:31:00.003+08:00

When you give me that warm smile , it feels as though my heart stop beating.

am i falling for you ?

2011-09-06T19:39:00.005+08:00

here i am again . so today is the second day of my N's level exam . can't brag nor complain about it. cs i don't what to feel .ya feel me. i can't believe up till now that im sitting for an national exam . yes time flies fast . can't describe this feeling im having now . but while sitting for the exam ,my mind was at ease .hmmm ,probably bcos ... haha ! shouldn't tell here lah .

seriously i've no idea to talk about . GAHAHAHA . will be back later ok !

Ya feel me

2011-07-24T00:28:00.002+08:00

Do you know the feelin wanting to talk to someone but you just can't. That's what im feelin right now :( it keep bugging me oh well . It's not that i don't wanna talk with you but im scared it's not gonna be the same like how it used to be. Yes we may not be as close as before but it kills me inside knowing that we ain't talking like as if we are not friends anymore . I don't know why but i don't think anyone understand this feelin im having. It just sucks havin to keep this by myself and not tellin anyone up till now .

Im back yawww

2011-07-22T18:31:00.003+08:00

OMGGGG can't denied how much i miss blogging.i know i been leaving this blog for so long ! But can't help it im busy with sch lah :( so yestd i decided to read back my old post .though it aching to see how things have change so much but i gotta accept it the way things are. N's comin soon .final shot .wanna make it to sec 5 although ppl say it will be a hard journey to go through. Ramadhan are nearing so does my prelim . Afterwards raya then comes my N's.it's gonna be damn fast.which sometimes makes me feel so pressurise pls . Oh ya , few months ago , i make new friends.filiphino malaysian annnnd more .idk why im tellin but it just feel good to know someone new . Hex hex . I can't promise i'll update again but oh well i 'll find some time . Im not gonna leave this blog again

gotohell.

2011-03-04T22:41:00.004+08:00

thank you for breaking your promises. thank you for hurting me again and again. thank you for avoiding me once again . im the one who would always get hurt at the end . :[ NIGHTS

p.s: you gt your new clans ,till you forgot the old ones .nice......

no hate .

2011-02-24T23:24:00.004+08:00

find me ,im here

im the one who will always get hurt.but its ok

2011-02-24T22:41:00.007+08:00

finally get to see this girl,just lighten my day .

at least it keep my worries away .

gimme more,gimme more-deldel<3>

its funny if i blog but there's no one reading it anymore. anyway ,this week have been a busy week. tight schedule. common test almost finished ,one ppr to go which is tomorrow. MATHS . i don't know if i can make it or not. thankfully science i got the hang of it .

anyway , i almost teared to tears when my classmates remind me '3more days' . hahaha ,i dont even know that my bday is coming.silly girl .k k,this sat going to scape .hopefully ,we wont get lost . idk what to update anymore. nites world ;)

some people care while some act as if they care.but they don't :(

why oh why

2011-02-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

so sad,my birthday coming up.im not looking forward to it. people keep reminding me that im left with how many till my birthday.but im not happy bout it.u get what i meant?every year ,same shit happen. sometimes i get envy, seeing others celebrate their birthday.oh common.idk why im talking bout this anyway.

you shouldn't have go .

2011-02-13T00:51:00.003+08:00

i'll always tell myself,what i did went wrong. cos it always me end up getting hurt. it just sucks when you're not in good term with your friends.i dont why ,but ya feel me .i so sad .chey.sorry for not updating this blog.i've been busy. :(

i keep having nightmare thinking of you.

2011-02-02T23:03:00.003+08:00

yes,i promised to update this blog .but to no unveil. many things had happen this past few days.

tomorrow will be heading to grandma house for cny celebration. friday going to sentosa. and hopefully,the weekend i could spent on my studies. i got tons of pictures to upload but i find no time .no,im not kidding.

n 25 more days to my big day. i dont know what to expect man .hmmm .i'll update if i have the time.promise.chey .no promises ;)

i can't keep this for long .cos the truth is, i miss you

sorry ,all i could say

2011-01-24T22:10:00.005+08:00

today is Monday blues. my hair in mess thus i tie my hair anyhow. i hate it when that's happen. and i get a scolding from teacher. its not idk how to tie my hair ,but my hair alrdy like that .hmmm.lesson went well.gotta agree that i getting the hang of physics .YES ,like at last .ss ,not that bad .had alot of great time discussing with my mates. there's one part whereby shao wei ask me why iceland and britain fight over fish and not potato. hahaha. so i ans back was " you ask them lah ,why they fight over fish and nt potato" oh god,i don't have any idea what going through his mind when he said that .hahaha.

here's come eng .hex hex.someone said go to hell uh *monotone* .swear i was laughing loudly man when he said that. aigoo!lesson after that were draggy.all i could think of is my bed. i was lethargic man.tell me bout it.heavy bag .after sch ,met mom.she agree on buying me sports shorts for tomorrow tournament.at first i don't even ask for her to buy for me.since she insist ,i said ok can:)

when all over the shop.fuuuuu ,don't have my size.funny man.all size xl and l.sad life sia.finally i found one.nt satisfying though.at least better then nothin right. so went shop for other things.i ask for new earpiece.all my old earpiece gone case. next up= blackberry casing .hoho,i gt so many things in my mind to buy man.

wish me luck for tomorrow 1st match.with SSS if im not wrong.if we lost ,it wouldnt be a suprised eh.but even if we gain points is already good enough.haiss,singapore sports school.

i should end here.i wanna read up on chem notes.i'll tell e result tomorrow .consider eh.chey ,nights world ;)

if one day you realised im gone from you're life,its because of you.

2011-01-16T22:23:00.003+08:00

i shouldn't leave this site unattended. i'll fill it up with how my life were and my days were. sorry for leaving this for awhile. i been active in twitter till i forget blogger. i should start updating like how i used to.but sometimes thinking back.i wonder if there's still anyone reading it. but no worries .i miss sharing how my days were in school. how someone could just made my day .aigoo,i miss sharing .soon ,i promise ;)

on the better side,im grateful how someone can made me special. you don't have to be special to everyone but just one person.i learn to forget all those aching moment but it sure give me good memories . looking back,i feel silly for crying over a small matters. arghh ,silyy billy .

can't wait for my birthday although its still long way to go.i miss getting presents.cos you don't expect what you get.i love surprises.

you don't know what you have wasted.

2011-01-15T20:52:00.003+08:00

they say time heal all the wounds.i shall agree with that . no use me , sad over smtg that won't change to the old ways/past . tomorrow heading to airport.can't wait.aigooo. and mostly what i can't wait is on mon. someone said his gonna talk to me finally :p bet he wont eh .huhu .alright nites :):)

wasted.

2011-01-13T22:42:00.003+08:00

you never see it comin. you never care. so tell me why i should bother to make things alright when its not.i have to smile. pretend everything is okay then hold back.

anyway,i just love going to sch this days .hex hex x) ok,why must i be too nice ? _):

another ,stop callin me farhana.like seriously .aigoo.

t.i.r.e.d

2011-01-10T21:16:00.003+08:00

its hard to deal/stand with your attitude each an everyone of you .i need you to understand me for once. i could get hurt by your words.so pls,consider my feelin.i have feelin too. don't take me a fool whom don't have feelin . tired of this,seriously .alright with what i wanna say,thats all. hopefully you get what i meant alright.

the feelin came back.

2011-01-05T23:14:00.012+08:00

ok,i found tb pic.ttl of 100+ pic, if im nt wrg.of cs i won't update all of it here.i wanna meet tb again man. yes ,i really need a wish right now.chey:p

the past days ,i've been searching fr tb photos at my old album .but upon that,i stumble on other photos instead.

idk why i was so happy laughing.ohh god.i wanna laugh again with no worries in my mind:/

ini zaman....zz

deldel

pic of the day=KAK HODA KAK HODA. since you ask for it,here it goes.if im nt wrg this was two yrs ago.which mean ,we were in sec 1.alalala,i still gt alot pic.BUT, i fickle minded whether to upload it or not.i'll consider it

love suicide

2011-01-03T21:37:00.004+08:00

hai hai ,im ready for school.my bag is blue,my water-bottle is blue,my wallet is blue.if only my vans shoe is blue, errr.aigooo ,im so happy to see my friends and tchers.ok,love you all.find me at twitter for the time being ya ;)

stop acting as if you care.

2011-01-02T22:56:00.001+08:00

find me at twitter.com/hanahfarhana .i'll be active there.

Idk how to react anymr:/

a new year begin

2011-01-01T02:02:00.002+08:00

i can't believe 2011 is here.i meant 2010 end so fast.

while others say that 2010 have been a great year for them,but not for me. so here's why it is.

:friends . this was emotional abit though. can't denied i met a-lot of great friends this year . they indeed fill up my times with happy moments/memories. but also,in the mids i have lost a friend.this kinda sucks actually. cs for real,i can't accept it. remember last yr i lost one,and this year the same shit happen to me again. tell me bout it. when i say i lost friends i meant ,we're not in talking terms ,so yea. i dunno who's fault actually. like a sudden we're nt talking terms,like you go yr own way while i go own my way.this sucks actually.

i remembered i teared at mac in front of my girls. can't believe it. up till today,i remembered, bcos it leave such a big scar in my heart.chey ,serious. but 2010,have taught me a lesson. realising my mistake and learnt from it.

but what i like 2010 most is ,my wish did come true. which is to see :TAUFIK BATISAH! AIGOOO,TILL THIS DAYS I STILL CAN RECALL EACH AND EVERY MOVE HE MADE FRM FRP:) Taufik"help,help"-frp

but i guest what happened in 2010 stays in 2010.im looking forward t0 2011 beginning. saving my heart from heartbreaks. and i will still put others before me although sometimes. they don't deserve it.hmm. and lastly study smart and go sec 5. so can enter poly.i really wanna make my parents proud of me.

this is longggg but i still prefer 2009. can't denied that year is still unforgettable. so much to remember. love ,banana .HAPP NEW YEAR;)

terima kasih wahai sahabatku:/

2010-12-30T00:20:00.003+08:00

when it comes to knowing the thruth,i hate it.its not that i can't accept it.but why must things happen this way? Why ? Im no longer fine anymore bcos the thruth came right infront of my eyes.i can't hide it anymore.i always put others before myself.i dont want others feeling get hurt.but now ,my feeling is hurt. Ty ,for breaking your promise.i guess,you no longer the person i knew.tyvm.

dad.

2010-12-28T20:55:00.003+08:00

hoda ,if you're reading this.i wanna tell you that you're a strong girl. and although i dunno what's going through your mind, pls cheer up . it's just sad to see you like that. im not good with words ,i dunno how to comfort people. but i can promise you that ,i'll be here for you always if you need someone to talk to . although its hard,i know you could pull this through . you know,there's still others that are by your side. your loves one.esp your mom. you need to be strong.

indeed ,his presence still fresh in my mind till know. no matter how much we think its impossible or how this happen to fast,it just happen. can't lie,i miss your late dad.he's the man.

cheer up nur.alhudah

pretty tha boy.

2010-12-28T20:39:00.004+08:00

i been re-blogging most of minho photos.i admit its been such a long time since i went to his tumblr to look at his photos.hex hex. although i like jang guen suk and kim hyun joong,it will never be the same w/o minho ! gahhh ,i just love looking at pretty boy photos.hehs.~!

p.s:i gave up.

some people don't believe.

2010-12-28T00:54:00.005+08:00

just wanna say,thank you for making my day.
xoxo

no no,not again.

2010-12-25T01:25:00.005+08:00

i can't lie about this feelin .i can't lie anymore to myself that im okay with it .not anymore .this feelin just suck.it keep comin back .i would always get to know,the things i wish i wouldn't know in the first place. this can't hurt me again and again .

when will it be?

2010-12-24T01:38:00.002+08:00

i'll tell you when the time is right.now its not the right time): we can be miles apart.and no matter where you are,you're always in my heart .

sunshine!

2010-12-23T22:45:00.006+08:00

2f'09

had a blast today. although mummy teo came vry early chey ,i meant late.it went smoothly .the weather was nice to us. even though not the whole class came,i still felt the bonding between all of us.i love them vry much ,<3<3>

ty guys for the fun and presents .hex hex .

p.s ;sorry for leaving this blog unattended.but don't worry ,i'll update it still.:)

but you wouldn't do the same.

2010-12-20T22:16:00.004+08:00

so today ,i was left alone at home.since i was damn bored,i remade my twitter account.cos i forgotten the old password >:( and update my dusty tumblr which i've made way way months back.yahuhu.

the reason why i make twitter account is bcos ; k,only ikha know.HAHAHA.

can't wait for tomorrow.Seoul garden baby.and on 23rd mummy teo pinic for 2f'09.wah wah.

here's my twitter: twitter.com/hanerbanana

p.s: cs im gonna push you away from my life like how you did to me

2010-12-16T22:15:00.006+08:00

jang guen suk ;)

it's okay to be not okay sometimes.that's what i would always remind myself whenever im feelin down . for the past days ,I've been filling my times with Korean drama. which keeps me smiling and laughing for no reason .and can't denied that jang kuen suk is so adorable.haiiis.

can't wait for this sat.ikha bro's engagement huhu. next week ,2f class picnic.haiii ,lookin forward to it.now whut ?! hmm,wanna continue watching video .

cherish that moment.

2010-12-15T00:15:00.003+08:00

nothin last forever. Nobody say its easy to push someone away from your life. Nobody say its easy to get back up when you fall.nobody say its easy to force a fake smile ,just so others know that you're strong enough to pull through.i kept tellin myself i'll pull this through though its hard.although it hurts inside,sooner or later it won't.imma strong girl.haiyakk.chey .nights world:)

gotta say at last.

2010-12-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

i don't think i should vent anger on anyone anymore.no use.cs by the way you treating me ,unreasonable . So i therefore , idc bout it.let's put on those smile again yea

cs its your special day:)

2010-12-10T18:44:00.007+08:00

Hey bruno batisah!
hexhex.i been waitin to post this

Happy 29th birthday taufik batisah,tb,taupik <3
6 yrs had past ,and your still e tb i knew.never fail to make me smile by just hearing yr voice.

I will always get excited whenever you appear on tv.i wonder why.you're my idol and will always be.not only did you aspire me but motivate me as well.dts why kept me alive.cheyy

I love the way you laugh.cs it make me laugh too.weets.hopefully next yr,you have released yr new album.so that i could get it fr my birthday presents fr the second time.heh,jokin

Anyway,hope that i could meet you again .that could really make my wish come true.just so yknow,i alrdy wish you through yr wall.thx to hoda man.if nt,i dont have the courage to do so.cs im scared.silly me.

Lastly,just wanna say that i love you :)

you so beautiful,feel like im in a dream

2010-12-09T21:36:00.003+08:00

i wonder why i even bother nor care . I should'nt .but my feelings say i should.this just sucks. Hi ,beautiful.im sorry.

selamat hari jadi si cantik:)

2010-12-09T20:19:00.004+08:00

happy birthday minho aka prettyboy!

the first time i saw you while watching dreamteam on KBS.somehow you outstand among the rest.simply because you have a baby face and you were competitve.i adore his pretty face.just so you know its hard to find guy with prettyface with abit of girl look.but not totally geddit?!

I make it sound hard to understand.any way ,your e 1st korean guy that i like follow by jang kuen suk.any way,whose birthday tomorrow uhh :p :p taupikkk

there never be another you.

2010-12-07T23:17:00.004+08:00

i never gonna lie about this feelin. but i guess enough is enough.that's about it

HAHAHAHA

2010-12-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

hahaha.i remembered being called 'sayang' instead .for sleeping in class ." sayang bangun sayang" .got to be my most embarrassing moments man! and then ,came my classmates teasing me about it :x

you're the reason im lookin for

2010-12-05T20:21:00.003+08:00

i'm still finding the right reason.but i guess ,i still have'nt found it yet. Hmmmm. Another thing,i been missing catching alam shah play on tv.damnnnn . Twice ,tell me about it. Lastly,5 more days to tbaby birtydayyyy .idk why im happy bout it.

baby bay

2010-12-03T19:04:00.001+08:00

haiiii ,7 more days to tb big day.his birthday.hex hex

admit it,for once.

2010-12-03T19:00:00.000+08:00

it's over and done.i got nothin to say

bullet through the heart.

2010-12-02T23:30:00.005+08:00

if one thing i could do right now will be punching you on the stomach for all i care.i wanna vent my anger on you so that it will make me feel better at least .

friends.

2010-12-01T22:39:00.003+08:00

miss havin circle of friend around me.jokes and laughter .

Where there is love there is life.

2010-12-01T22:29:00.003+08:00

sometimes,i think bottle up my feelings its better then to share with someone. remember how i used to keep smiling with no worries.i miss all that . you used to be somebody to me but now ?

Never knew

2010-11-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

I think its simply pathetic.we are not on talking terms anymore.never knew this could hurt real bad somehow.Im outta here

you left me without a goodbye.

2010-11-23T23:10:00.005+08:00

hexhex;)

i bet i can't sleep tonight. this will eventually happen if tomorrow i had something on.sheesh . gonna spoil my sleeping time. my phone now full with tb pictures.haha,idk why bt im so happy about it.hmmm .i think i should stop blabbering and go to sleep . shall continue tomorrow.hows that . selamat malam bayiku(baby)ambuiii .k,nights;)

wish i could control my inner feelin

2010-11-23T21:48:00.007+08:00

my blog is dead.i meant officially dead. nawww. my tag board idk ever since when ppl tag when comin.imma sad banana . tomorrow there's friendly match. and its early in the mornin. seriously is not funny.i wanna catch my beauty sleep also cannot.chey. nehmind ,for my friends sake and school,i shall come. and home with victory consider we won. don't wanna put high hopes on myself. cos it might just pull me down anytime when i lost.k ,no.

idk what's with my english today,pardon me.hex .shall sleep earlier man. ok,wait for ma last post .

#no. 1

2010-11-20T13:37:00.004+08:00

last night performance.once again ,tb appearance was magnificent .he sound better live and there's no doubt. just like frp(: hex hex. fall in love with him or either cb or lewis ,no heartbreaks.haha .tb look stunning as ever .thats is why,he's still my fav .

ok,go.

AWW,

2010-11-19T20:33:00.005+08:00

so project hope is on suria and channelnewasia .hex hex .ok,bai . wanna watch TBTB:D

♥♥♥

love makes you stupid.

2010-11-19T19:34:00.005+08:00

im no longer the girl you used to knew .i've changed , sorry

You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.i never gonna give up no matter. although i fail,to get back up is only my choice. to make me stronger and bolder. does it makes sense .hmmm. im tired of all this game. so being myself is the only choice. you are who you are. so stick to being youreslf ya.(:

i guess this is the time,the time of my life .

pretty boy.

2010-11-19T00:01:00.004+08:00

why so pretty lewis ? heh . change my blog songs. the 1st time i heard it ,it makes me move to tears . today since 12am already, i'll be starting to read my storybook follow by doing my homework. considered ,i repeat considered i didn't wake up late .heh .and nights will be watching tb.weets .

k ,gtg .mimpi manis smue:)

don't talk to me. i'm not your friend.

2010-11-18T21:55:00.008+08:00

sometimes it takes a good fall to know where you stand. when you fall ,you know i'll be here catching you. no matter what .

tomorrow don't forget to catch taufikbaby at project hope .

big fat liar

2010-11-16T23:27:00.003+08:00

so i realised it so hard to reconcile back with friends whom you long ago talk to. it doesn't feel like the old time you see.im not blamin anyone here.i think you're happy now with your group of friends.

too bad i can't be there when you're in need. maybe true ,im not a good friend indeed for you . no worries ,i'll be happy for you when you're happy.

i shall let go of my ego and be nice with people around me,my surroundings.no feelin of hatred .

the wait is over.

2010-11-16T17:25:00.001+08:00

blackberry soon ;)

no one.

2010-11-16T11:36:00.002+08:00

i think it is impossible to forget someone who was your reason to smile everyday .

that's about it.

2010-11-14T16:12:00.001+08:00

4991) IF ONE DAY YOU NOTICE THAT WE HAVEN’T BEEN TALKING FOR A WHILE, IT’S NOT BECAUSE I DON’T CARE ANYMORE. IT’S BECAUSE YOU PUSHED ME AWAY.

There’s never a right time to say goodbye, but I gotta do it.

2010-11-12T19:41:00.007+08:00

i'm always at fault ,no matter what . people would pin-point finger to me anyway . just take note that ,im sorry if i had any wrong doings/do shit or ruined your life gals/ guys . all to late.

sometimes its better to leave ,then stay.

2010-11-12T17:02:00.006+08:00

i wanna post about Lewis today . so today ,i get to know that lewis finally made an twitter account. finally man. all this while the 'Lewis Hamilton' account i encounter to all was fake/genuine . so his name at twitter is @iamlewis4real .HAHAHA. so cute ^.^ nxt time i wanna name myself ,iamhanabanana4real.cheeyy . huhu .idk why im happy anyway .

tomorrow there's wedding to attend to. my cousin wedding,FINALLY . and mine:p k,no . one day become the kendarat= $50 .hex hex . looking forward to tomorrow big events. food esp :D wahh ,cannot wait . everyone is welcome to come.HAHA! I'll be waiting .chey .-say bye bye

all said ,all done .

2010-11-10T20:59:00.008+08:00

if you're my good friend,you wouldn't talk behind my back. you wouldn't ill-treat me. won't you ? i see your true colours. surprising as it seem ,nothing could help . just sayin .hex.

i like chris brown new songs .'boing' hexhex.tomorrow will be having maths class .2 hour ,tell me about it.hmm

it's not the end.it's the beginning

2010-11-08T22:02:00.006+08:00

it's pretty sad that you didn't won. but i know that you are capable of winning for next year championship .i still don't lose hope on you.heh . so don't lose hope on yourself.im typing as if you know but nehmind. love you like i always do.prettyboy(:

p.s : even though people said that you're not good,i still think you're the best. hex hex .

it's not hard for me to know whose lying or who don't . it doesn't take that long. it's okay. i'm used too it. every single time like this its seriously heartbreaking . but who's cares anyway .you go your on way while i go my on way alright. too good to be true eh.nice .hmmm .don't ask me how im feeling right now.cos its just feel shitty .

i wish it was you all along.yes ,it did

2010-11-08T21:01:00.006+08:00

ok,i should eat by now. since afternoon i haven't ate . sad banana. i should cook banana porridge for myself later .err,anyway tomorrow heading down to hospital . if i didn't wake up late again man.if not kan ,im left alone . today thought have the Filipino story on channel 5. the 'two of us'.something like that.nice story man.

the actor Garcia,awwwww.so cute.but cannot beat pretty boy. i been watching video on demand movie from just now. so shiok. err,k not. it's not fun when you are watching it alone eh. especially thriller and horror movie. k ,should stop here now.wait for my last post. hexhex

heart beat .beep beep .

2010-11-07T23:08:00.005+08:00

If there is only one gift I can give you, it will be the gift to see how others see you and you will know how special you are to them.no worries ;)
i can't wait to see F1 race which will be starting at 12am . although tomorrow i got school but i wouldn't want to miss a thing. the race is held at brazil,and hopefully lewis get the tittle. but don't wanna put high hopes cos the red bulls are pretty competitive too. hmmm

another thing,my hand sprained again.idk what the heck has happen.so pain yet idk what to do.

im always here.

2010-11-07T20:18:00.008+08:00

cos i thought i could make everyone happy. but indeed i was wrong. it just so hard. to bring a smile on anyone faces.

just want you to know that everything's gonna be alright.have faith .im always there for you.

i know that you're a strong girl (: put on those smile again yea .

heart=stone .

2010-11-05T00:27:00.003+08:00

fri,gonna wake up super early .cos i can't resist/missed watching tb on tv. hex hex. after that ,then gonna build muscle.chey,no kidding only. my hand still hurt.like xzdabdshd.idk whats wrong with it though. cb got new video with t.i .will upload it soon here provided i'll update this blog.seem no one coming here anymore.nyehh .gtg,gonna sleep while listening to cb and tb songs (:

huhu ,fav.

tomorrow will be a better day.promise

2010-11-04T23:31:00.007+08:00

just as i thought ,yes everything might be over but not really.oh well.i don't wanna bear grudges on anyone anymore. not even a single person. but common on. if yr attitude towards me is unreasonable.i don't know what to say or do anymore. just bear in mind,i cant afford to loose another friends anymore. once is enough.

smile world:D

2010-11-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

choo cute.

all it takes is just a smile.

so i'm gonna smile though it aching inside(:

say bye bye,say bye .

2010-11-03T21:44:00.007+08:00

egoistic-

being centered in or preoccupied with oneself and the gratification of one's own desires; self-centered

we can't run away from it . everyone of us,has an ego. big alter ego.i have big ego u see.hmm.idk why i'm talking about this btw.

sprained my hand.banana=sad case.go die.bye.